Every freelancer in any industry goes through a feeling of self-doubt. It’s perfectly normal, but the problem is letting that fear paralyse your business and your life. In this article, we’ll be talking about why you’re good enough right now and how to stop fear paralysing your business.
You all know I’ve been trying to make it as a makeup artist for nearly a year now. I started my business in December of 2015 and it’s had a lot of fits and starts to the point where it’s only now I feel confident enough to say proudly, I am a makeup artist.
Freelancers and artists in every industry go through fears, but it’s how you deal with it that defines your character and the shape of your business. My favourite author Elizabeth Gilbert or Eat Pray Love fame has written this book called Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear that really inspired me. This is the book every creative needs to read to just start whatever you’re doing.
Making art whether on a canvas, on the page or on a face is a choice. In the olden days, you had Patrons who commissioned artists to make their likeness onto canvases, now you have makeup artists painting your likeness for the Instagram ready always filtered world.
For a long time, I thought I wasn’t enough. I didn’t have the right kit, the right skills and I obsessively watched YouTube videos of kit hauls try and get my kit right. In the end, I decided I just could not compete with this. It literally drained my bank balance to the point I ended up in debt with no clients and a massive stockpile I was not using.
I still watch YouTube kit videos but now I’m starting a wishlist instead so that I can research a product further before I invest.
It was my fear of not being good enough that led me down that self-destructive path that paralysed my business. I turned down jobs because I thought in my head I was not good enough to compete with the bigger names, little realising that because my prices are cheap, my clients were not expecting me to have Mario Dedivanovic’s kit to make them into Kim Kardashian.
Right now with the kit I have, I am good enough.
If I could go back in time, I would have saved myself thousands of pounds and just started. As clumsy as I was, as unknowledgeable, I would have just started after I did my training rather than making sure I had the right kit that was so much out of my reach.
At the end of the day, I am still not perfect. I still make mistakes, but I am not going to let my fear of not being enough take away from my ability to be an artist. My clients want me to see something in them they don’t. They ask me to take the by the hand and transform them with whatever skill I have.
So, I say to all you newbie freelancers. Just start. Don’t wait for someone to give you permission, just start and be who you are right now. You’ll make mistakes but you learn from them. You might not have all the tools right now, but with every job you learn.
Add anything only when you need to. Don’t be ashamed if your kit is not that expensive. Lower your prices to match. Experiment with drugstore before you invest in high-end makeup. And when you can add more high-end stuff, raise your prices accordingly.
Overall do not be afraid to be the best version of yourself right now. You are more than enough.